'21'

LETRA

'21'

I resent the flowers
that your mom brought
for the kitchen counter
i resent the version of myself
you couldn’t love forever

I regret the sculptures that I shaped
For you to think that I was great
Were you my syndicate
Or were we bound to separate, mhm

Something in the pink storm
Of the apartment in the college dorm
Shaved my skin right from the muscle
Bled me dry then poured me a double

Asked if I could take it that much longer
You set your keys down on the counter
Did not impart much wisdom
The liquor dripped down in my system

21 in the corner of my mind
Would’ve died for the antonym of blind
(woulda, woulda died)
21 what a stupid reckless age
All the happiness that you had waged
(The happiness that you have to wage)
And everything that I now hate
Including what your eyes create

Do you think that you’d ever shell out
the benefit of the doubt?
If I’m the monster lurking
You’re the one
Behind me smirking

Asked if you could take it that much longer
You left me with a silent offer
If you could leave unscathed
I’d bear the cost to separate

21 in the corner of my mind
Wasn’t old enough to see the signs
(I couldn’t if I tried)
21, were you waiting to be saved
All the peace you would procrastinate
(All the peace that you would procrastinate)

Tomorrow you’ll clean the graveyard
On the bedside space
And you’ll go to bed real early
And you’ll meditate
And you’ll leave the party late
And you’ll separate
And you’ll think yourself deserving
And you’ll liberate

And you’ll get closer to 30
And you’ll resign your hate